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one hello darkness hello children

1. 안녕, 어둠아. 안녕 우리 아가들

it is I the darkness within so you know

이 몸은 바로 『내면』의 어둠이란다.

how life is like kind of bad well what

그래 있잖아 인생이란게 좀... 구리지 않아?

are you gonna do about that hmm I mean

뭐 그래서 어쩔거냐구? 흥?

there's a few things you can do first

니가 할 수 있는게 몇가지 있지

you could work to improve yourself and

첫째로 발전하기 위해 노력해서

make the world a better place that's

세상을 좀 더 좋게 만들 수 있는거고

probably the most effective approach

이 방법이 가장 효과적이겠지 "결과"적으로는 말이야.

eventually but the problem is that it's

근데 문제는 힘이 든다는거구

hard and I don't like things that are hard because when you do things that are

난 힘든거 싫어해

hard you have to feel bad now so that you can feel good later

왜냐면, 힘든 일을 하게 되면 나중에 기분이 좋기 위해서 지금 기분이 나빠야 하잖아?

and I don't want to feel good later I

난 나중에 기분이 좋아지기 싫다구

want to feel good now and if you want to

난 당장에 기분이 좋아지고 싶단 말이야

feel good now well you have a couple

그리고 당장에 기분이 좋아지길 원한다면

options the first is of course to do

뭐, 두어개쯤 방법이 있지 첫번째는, 뭐 당연히 약을 빠는거구

drugs and I've tried that I spent most

난 이미 시도해 봤고

of my 20s on the threshold of alcoholism

내 20대의 대부분을 알콜중독의 경계선을 넘나드면서 살았는데

but it turns out that's not a cute look

글쎄나

for me it's not my vibe so what I do now

나 귀욥게 보이지 안뀨 내 기분에 안맞았쪄

when I feel the darkness coming is what

그래서 이젠 『어둠』이 찾아볼 때면

any respectable woman would do I take a

모든 정숙한 숙녀분들이 하듯

xanax and lie on the floor for a couple

신경안정제를 먹고 바닥에 몇시간동안 누워있지

hours is that a pee under my mattress your

매트리스 위에 그것은 콩알인가요? 폐하!

majesty or is it another xanax I left

아니면 내가 카펫 위에 남겨둔 신경안정제일까?

under the throw rug now the problem with doing drugs is that when the drugs wear

약의 문제는 약빨이 떨어지면

off you feel bad again in fact you

다시 기분이 나빠진다는거야

probably feel worse so where do we go

사실, 기분이 더 나빠질 수도 있지

from here

그럼 이제 어떻게 해야하나

well how about music you feel bad you

그렇담, 음악은 어떨까?

want to listen to sad music because sad

기분이 나쁠때는 슬픈 음악을 듣고 싶어지잖아?

music makes you cry and crying feels

왜냠 슬픈 음악은 널 울게 만들거든 그리고 우는건 기부니 좋지

good it's like an orgasm for sad people and

마치 슬픈 사람들을 위한 오르가즘 같은거야

why settle for less than the official meme song of sadness the sound of silence by Simon and Garfunkel you know

그리고 슬플때 듣는 공식 밈송인 Simon and Garfunkel이 부른 "The Sound of Silence" 말고 들을게 있어?

I'm pretty sure there's another xanax under this throw rug hello darkness my old friend

그거 있잖아 이 매트 밑에 신경안정제가 있을텐데.. ♪ 내 오랜 벗 어둠이여 ♪

but in the memes you only hear the first 10 seconds of the song

근데 밈에선 곡의 첫 10초만 듣게 되잖아

you only hear hello darkness my old

내/오랜/벗/어둠이여 만 듣게 되지

friend and that's the very sad first 10

정말 슬픈 10초동안의 노래이고

seconds of a song which is good because

이건 좋은거지

if you're making songs for sad people

왜냐하면 슬픈 사람들을 위해 곡을 만들 땐

it's important to establish your sadness cred up front because sad people don't

이 노래는 슬프다라고 각인시켜주는게 매우 중요하거든

like happy songs when you're sad happy

슬픈 사람들은 행복한 노래를 안 좋아한다구 니가 슬프면

songs make you feel like you're being

행복한 노래들이 아주 개소리처럼 느껴지거든..❤

[ __ ] and so we're ten seconds into the song hello darkness my old friend the key is d sharp minor the saddest

곡의 첫 10초, 내/오랜/벗/어둠이여의 키는 D# 마이너야

with all keys but when we get to the

"키 중에도 가장 가련한 키"

next line because of vision softly

하지만 다음 가사인

creeping something happens let's listen

시각이 부드럽게 차오르며 가 나오면 무언가가 일어나지

come to talk with you again because a

자 들어볼까? 당신와 다시 이야기를 나누러 왔소

vision softly creeping ah what was that

시각이 부드럽게 차오르며 앙

suddenly a major chord an unsuspected burst of sunlight through the clouds and every peach fuzz hair on the back of my biologically female knack stands on and

뭐였냐 진짜 갑자기 주 코드가

halel eyes so the song has enticed me with its promise of company for misery and then it has tricked me into feeling good and that's what I like about art it

takes the standard disappointments and humiliations of life and cooks them into something worth getting off the floor for unfortunately I don't really play

music much anymore because my hands are too beautiful for instruments and my singing voice sounds like a man so all I really have left is what any aspiring

artist with no talent turns to comedy and I especially like dark comedy you know comedy about the things in life that are the most painful to me dark

humor is kind of like a sad song it takes your worst feelings traumas and anxieties and twists them into a source of pleasure and don't all the finest

pleasures come from pain ah a lot of the time that means joking about topics that an ordinary life are considered taboo you know sadness fascism sexual

deviation cult without the ability to joke and make fun of my own experiences of self-loathing substance abuse gender dysphoria

I mean probably be on the floor right now looking for that xanax but this puts me in a difficult situation because I

wanted to defend my sense of humor which I feel is like the core of my personality and what keeps me alive but at the same time I've noticed that a lot

of the people in our culture who are really big on defending provocative controversial politically incorrect comedy are kind of dick nuggets let's

discuss this and by discuss I mean you said quietly and I'll tell you what to think - dick nuggets so the year 2016 had just begun and already the most 2016

possible thing was happening Ricky Gervais is an irreverent bad-boy atheist comedian was ranting on Twitter for days and days about how stupid it is that

people are offended by things this is pretty standard for Ricky Gervais a man whose personal branding screams I don't care about your feelings I know what

it's like to be persecuted for my beliefs I'm too much of a badass rebel to care what minorities thing but in January 2016 Ricky Gervais was having an

extra badass irreverent not caring about your feelings kind of moms why because he just hosted the Golden Globes and upset a bunch of people by telling jokes

about all Tran ma Caitlyn Jenner as I say I'm gonna be nice tonight I've changed not as much as Bruce Jenner obviously that's cutting edge material

there Rick very irreverent very rebellious very bad boy atheist I mean I do wish you wouldn't dead name trans people on stage but honestly the joke

wasn't even as transphobic as a lot of the stuff I've come to just expect from comics still I'm sure Twitter had a thing or two to say about it and Ricky

spent the rest of the month tweeting about how offending people is good actually and he definitely doesn't care that people were offended but clearly

Twitter got to him because two years later he opened his Netflix special with a 13-minute bit rehashing the incident and doing a series of even more

irreverent jokes cuz I've always identified as a chimp right well I am a chimp i if I sandwich him I am a chimp pre-op

but and don't ever dead name me don't ever call we ricky gervais is again from now on you call me Bobo does he also

identify as an attack helicopter does he realize he is doing a meme from 2014 on stage and a 20 million dollar comedy special my issue with this joke is that

apart from being extremely passe and overdone it also doesn't make sense unless you ignorant ly believe that trans women are delusional men and even

then it's just not very funny but am i offended by the joke well I think it's ignorant misinformed unoriginal and not very funny and as a great comedian named

Ricky Gervais once said to me an offensive joke is the one that's lame badly delivered and not funny enough so by that measure yes I'd say this idea as

a chimp bit is pretty offensive but I'm not bringing this old controversy up because I'm offended I'm bringing it up because it's just an arbitrary example

of a cycle it seems like our culture repeats about once a week somebody makes a joke some people are offended by the joke and

other people are indignant about the fact that those people are offended the cycle usually gets framed as a battle in a culture war that's supposedly going on

between generations snowflake easily triggered humorless PZ Cox and badass edgy nothing off-limits free speech truth tellers now if this really is a

culture war between two sides than I am a double agent because I'm a generation snowflake PC cuck who loves dank edgy memes and I found myself on both sides

of this type of conflict many many times so on the one hand when I see the internet roasting a comedian for some shitty trans joke my inner snowflake

wants to watch the bastard burn but my inner edge lady knows how it feels to be dragged across Twitter over a joke and as someone who basically writes jokes

about controversial topics for a living I appreciate how difficult it is to maintain the mildly sadomasochistic character of comedy while also keeping

your moral compass from getting too jittery so what I want to try to do is step away from the heat of these social media battles and try to abstract from

them more general philosophical questions what is the purpose of comedy what is it that makes comedy good or bad does good

comedy punch up and speak truth to power does it bring light to some aspect of the human condition is it as Aristotle said the imitation of worse than average

German or is it simply anything anyone laughs at for whatever reason well I don't think there's a single objective answer I mean comedy is pretty

subjective but we can probably reach some kind of understanding by discussing this right and by we again I I do mean me the rest of you can keep your goddamn

mouth shut free straw man so as a trans woman up here discussing why I don't think Ricky Gervais is trans jokes are funny a lot

of haters and losers out there are probably gonna try to strawman me did you just assume the straw person says people have liked to trans jokes and

they're both so bad here's the straw person's [ __ ] straw person one you hate free speech and are trying to silence comedians I'm not trying to

silence anyone comedians can say whatever they want on stage and I can say whatever I want about them straw person - you just can't take the heat

when the joke's on you I transitioned on YouTube making controversial political content all the while and I read the comments my hate taking capacity is

among the highest of all time of course I do not have the internalized self-loathing that has damaged my psyche irreparably but sweetie

who doesn't strawperson 3 you think no one should be allowed to joke about trans people I invented joking about trans people never heard of the

mouthfeel I'm that tram that's right if I die tomorrow my legacy will be that I applied wine-tasting terminology - fellatio and I accept my

look half my job is telling jokes about trans people I live for trans jokes I just don't think this is people are very good at telling them because they don't

know enough about trans people to know what the funny things are and being transgender is honestly the perfect topic for comedy like you used to live

as one gender and then you became a different gender every single thing about that it's absolutely hilarious but humor is in the details and Ricky

Gervais does not know the details because he's clearly never been close to a trans person and that's why he's still telling these Tinkertoy 2015 caitlyn

jenner jokes and it's too bad cuz I'm actually starving over here for good trans comedy and I mean the real dark stuff - I'm not talking about trans

Rachel on the timeline calling her hormones teddy skittles no I like the edgy stuff I like being on the edge hi my name is Natalie win and I enjoy

edging now there is one recent work of trans comedy that I'd like to share with you because when you're doing art criticism it helps to have positive as

well as negative examples and the exemplary work I have in mind is one not a lot of people are talking about yet but which I have no qualms placing in

the same company as the works of Dante or Swift I am of course referring to my sperm bank experience by Gigi gorgeous if you don't know how gigi is first of

all who even are you do you have no respect for Legends she's a trans youtuber like the trans youtuber whose classic works such as my hemorrhoids and

I had sex with a dog long ago cemented her status as a comedy icon but in this critics opinion the crown jewel of Gigi's OVA is without a doubt

the singular masterpiece my sperm bank experience let's do a close reading for Gigi's sperm bank experienced a great work of literature is never just a text

it is also what the theorist Jean Jacques visage dupa saw would call a moment within an intertextual dialectic love that let us therefore place my

sperm bank experience within its proper context several months earlier Gigi had released a video about how she and her girlfriend were trying to have a child

so far without success and so they went to see a fertility specialist apparently gigi was not aware that taking feminizing hormones can make you

sterile which Carl they tell you like seven times before you start hormones like how well move past it a few months later the notification from my sperm

bank experience shows up on my phone because that's right I clicked the bell and immediately I knew I was about to experience something special the

thumbnail for this video is so much greater than anything I've ever conceived of that honestly it makes me feel like a failure both as a youtuber

and as a woman the sperm donation cup is labeled with Gigi's signature the I's are dotted with hearts and her facial expression LLL

come the video begins with Gigi explaining that in order to produce a sample for the clinic she had to stop taking hormones for three months so I

has it simply agreed I was like fine I will stop all of my hormones so you know my [ __ ] can get juicy again and I could get a good little sample up in here the

sperm bank day arrives she goes to the clinic approaches the receptionist and I said yes ma'am I am here to give sperm from me to be frozen now the doctor

arrives and leads her to the exam room which she describes with the precision of Mama flu bear I walk into this room fluorescent lighting the house I was

like I can see every pore in my arm like Jesus where they want me to do here and then the kicker this like leather couch the back is kind of like angled so I

guess like you can lean and really get into it or something the doctor offers her lubrication pornography if needed and a donation cup Gigi closes the door

and gets to work I get in the mood I got in this zone and I'm killing it [ __ ] I'm like I'm gonna give the best sample ever my kid is gonna be a god-sent child

before I know at the moment has crept up on me it happened and it's been so long that it hits the wall behind me and it's at this moment that glam goddess Gigi

gorges gets up off the leather couch and attempts to scrape a prodigious quantity of Gigi jism off the wall of a fluorescent lit exam room in a desperate

final bid to become a mother and I took the cup and I was like full-on like scraping it off the wall because I was like I'm not gonna let any little drop

go to waste you know I'm here this is like my moment I try to understand this video makes me laugh so much it's really the contrast of style and

substance like it wouldn't be funny if a masculine person told this story it's funny because Gigi has this peak feminine storytelling style in this Real

Housewives diction but the story itself is about blasting a giant load onto a wall of a room full of leather and pornography the dissonance between form

and content is genius and that dissonance perfectly captures the absurdity of being transgender with a comedic incisiveness that Ricky Gervais

is could only dream of I also really relate to the story because right before I started hormones I decided to freeze a sample of my own so I too have a sperm

bank experience and it was exactly like Gigi describes down to every detail it is not a dignified moment ladies there is just no way to feel like a woman

well you're hastily rubbing one out in an over Latrun designed for men to ejaculate it I feel so fish right now for this five minutes in the exam room I

was a man no I somehow managed to get most of my sample into the cup but there's a different absurd detail to my story

the receptionist of the sperm bank saw on my paperwork that I was depositing because I was going to start feminizing hormones and he asked me if there was a

name I preferred he called me and retrospect he was actually really sweet and really cute not that anything was gonna come with that at the time since I

was pray everything and rough around the edges be honest I was all edges but he asked me for my preferred name and I just blurted out Natalie and so this was

actually the first time anyone ever called me by my biological name and it went like this the receptionist at the sperm bank

charged to me and said right this way Natalie here's a cup for you to bust a knot in and that's how my life as a woman began yes now in the end Gigi's

story is actually pretty tragic her sample wasn't usable she wanted to have a child with her own DNA but she's been on hormones too long and she just can't

and that revelation at the end of the video kind of recontextualizes how you see the whole story in his ridiculous image of Gigi scraping ejaculate off the

wall I now see this primal maternal urge to produce and protects children I see a mother bird whose chicks have fallen prematurely from the nest

I see the Virgin Mary cradling her child I really really thought that I was gonna have a good sample and I was going to be able to participate in having a baby

with my DNA but it's just not in the cards for me and I really wanted to make this video more positive and funny because there is nothing I can do and

that's exactly it that is the darkness 5 the darkness the darkness is my name for what I consider the highest form of comedy where you

take your own worst feelings traumas and anxieties and twist them into a source of pleasure the darkness is Richard Pryor running down the street in flames

because he set himself on fire in a COAG field psycho says the darkness is GG gorgeous scraping her own produce jism off the

wall of an exam room in a desperate bid to save her chance at motherhood if you can make these low points funny then you're gonna be okay you're gonna

survive you're gonna make it through life and I need that now more than ever because trans experience is in a lot of ways pretty dark but trans people make

it through because we're good humoured and strong as [ __ ] pretty soon I'm gonna have to stop hormones before an operation and I'm terrified of that

what's gonna happen to me when I stop hormones am I gonna become a man again cuz I don't know if I can handle that I'm thinking about names though like

maybe Nathan or Jayden I can't see myself as a Jaden see I've gotta have my little jokey jokes or I don't think I could make it through this like when I

have bottom surgery I am absolutely going to constantly refer to it as my sex change operation because it makes me laugh it brings me joy calling it gender

confirmation surgery brings me no joy now it's important to notice that just because it doesn't make me laugh doesn't mean it's a politically correct

euphemism gender confirmation is a more accurate term than sex change because you're literally not changing your sex that's not what surgery does but ng

people have their own kind of political correctness with a mistake edginess for honesty accuracy and directness but these are very different things for

example George Carlin has a classic bit about euphemisms that has some great moments but also some moments that are way off base

for example content wording ablest slur they say they're going to pre-board those pass in need of special assistance cripples

simple honest direct language so look I understand the aesthetic preference for simple honest direct language and the repulsion toward verbose bureaucratic

jargon that's why so much of the rest of this bit is so good but the word he just used is literally a slur so I wonder if what you're being honest about is your

feelings toward disabled people because the phrase passengers in need of special assistance is a little wordy sure but in this situation it's actually more

accurate since it also includes the elderly the pregnant anyone in need of assistance boarding so I call my gender confirmation surgery getting a sex

change not because it's more direct and honest but specifically because it's inaccurate and outdated and that makes me laugh

not because I'm a fearless truth teller but because I'm a bad person and I get to call it my sex change operation but sis people don't get to call it that

because it's my darkness not yours get your own darkness when ricky gervais jokes about trans people he's being a hack cuz he knows nothing of our

darkness and when someone tries to joke about something that they're totally ignorant of the result is usually clumsy awkward and not very funny what I'd

really like to see is if ricky gervais stook all that irreverent bad-boy derisive nests and turned it within because within is where the darkness

lies sinks self deprecation self-deprecating humor is my personal favorite because as a lazy selfish craning attention [ __ ] who looks like a

slightly more passable Ann Coulter with a voice of a tropical bird there's a lot of material here to work with but especially when it comes to the trans

jokes there is a faction of the trans community that is not amused by the buffoonery that goes on on this channel I think the objection to it is best

summed up by the comic Hannah Gatsby who and her stand-up special Nanette said that when self deprecation comes from someone who exists in the margins it's

not humility it's humiliation and to be honest I felt a little called out by that I put myself down in order to speak in order to seek permission to speak and

she's not wrong like that is how this works in order to gain an audience as a trans person you have to demonstrate with sis people call self

awareness that is you have to signal that you see yourself the way the audience sees you which can mean looking at yourself with a pretty merciless gaze

and of course I'm happy to do that because I have no self respect and laughter is the only way to numb the pain but the terrible thing about being

a not normal with an audience is that you don't just get to be yourself because whether you like it or not people will see you as a representative

of the community oh so because of that responsibility which I never asked for I have to balance out the self deprecation with a lot of positive messaging about

my people and that way the dark shocks function as a spoonful of sugar to help the feminine penis go down but even without the group representation issue

it definitely is possible to take self deprecation too far as I said I have been diagnosed with an incurable edginess of temperament and I sometimes

do feel suffocated by the safe space rules of a lot of trans spaces even though those spaces are there for good reason and a lot of people need them but

sometimes this atmosphere of everything and everyone is solid all the time no uncomfortable questions may be asked any self deprecation is a sign of

traumatic internalized bigotry I just need to get out of there for a while and find a place where I can relax and be my edgy self I need a safe space for my

edginess where I can just blurt out whatever stupid question or joke comes to mind without being afraid that I'm gonna inflict horrible trauma

I never went around me so I call up another transsexual edge lady you know Kiki accuse each other of being cross dressers and just laugh it all off and

it's so so cathartic to do that but it does have to be done in moderation because there can come a point where you're picking at the wound and

of numbing it and it mostly has to be done in private because in public you have to worry about how this people will interpret it and so you have to find a

way to be self-deprecating without abandoning all social responsibility yes if there was ever a phrase that instantly deadens all after its social

responsibility but since its kind of the central topic of the comedy culture war I should probably say something about it even though believe me I'd much rather

go back to jabbering about my sex change 7 the eternal tension so what is a comedians job what is a comedian supposed to do

I suppose my ideal comedian is one who is perfectly able to balance the tension between shitposting and snowflake eree and this is an eternal tension it must

never be resolved it is a tightrope I have devoted my life to walking see if the tension collapses into pure snowflake eree you've got a moralist who

might say that a comedians purpose is to promote justice by punching up by speaking truth to power by exposing the flaws of bigoted mindsets and so on and

these are all very admirable goals but they leave out what I think is the essential purpose of comedy which is to be funny to surprise to shock to make

people laugh it's kind of like how some art and media critics only ever evaluate a work based on whether or not it's socially progressive and don't seem to

really think about aesthetic pleasure very much which to me is the reason why art exists in the first place but then again I am a hedonistic bushwa decadent

and should probably be sent to the guillotine at once just let me do my makeup first so that when they hold my head up everyone can see my beat and

their wings all fly to the Bastille also someone please post the video to my Instagram cuz that's gonna get a lot of engagement so the opposite of the Pierre

snowflake is the pure shet poster who might say that a comedians purpose is to make an audience laugh by any means necessary but that seems kind of

barbaric since like if a guard in a prison camp is torturing an inmate and the other guards are laughing does that count as comedy is a war crime funny

well according to the Geneva Convention it's hilarious the thing is I don't think many comedians actually believe in a completely

holistic vision of comedy I think they sometimes pretend to when they're trying to evade criticism I mean take even the edgiest of white guy comics and listen

to the way they talk about their heroes Lenny Bruce or George Carlin there's always an element of admiration for bravery risk subversion truth-telling

in other words there's a concern there for what is virtuous and what is true not just for what makes people laugh so maybe before we can even talk about

what's funny we have to have a level of shared agreement about what is true and what is morally right my objection to Ricky Gervais is trans jokes is not just

that they're not funny I think he's wrong about trans people and I think his ignorance is infectious I think he's stirring up bigoted sentiments in his

audience which has the consequence of making the world slightly scarier for people like me and too this is edginess at its worst just a privileged person

with a platform punching down at a politically besieged group he understands nothing about and that's what happens when the snowflake shits

post-tension collapses into peer shitposting it's boring and immature like when someone says he wants to watch the world burn you only get to watch

when you have the privilege of not being on fire it's edgy but it's not the darkness the darkness is finding a way to laugh about being on fire edginess is

always adolescent the darkness is edginess aged by time and pain and it's only at that full maturity that comedy becomes art that it becomes comparable

to music so those are my thoughts like comment and subscribe the end final sing the song I wish my brother George was here hello

darkness my old friend I've come to talk with you again because a vision softly creeping left its seeds while I was sleeping and the vision

[Music] we feel the sound of silence in Restless dreams I walked alone narrow streets of cobblestone Neath the halo of a street

lamp I turned my collar to the cold [Music] silence didn't make it light I saw 10,000 people maybe more

people talking without speaking people hearing without listening people writing [Music] disturb the sound of silence stay

gorgeous [Music]